What Have I Done?

What was the first thing you did when you became enlightened-Theologia mystica-09 Theologia Mystica, Chapter #9, Chapter title: I laughed
19 August 1980 am in Buddha Hall
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Bhagawan,
WHAT WAS THE FIRST THING THAT YOU DID AFTER YOU BECAME ENLIGHTENED?
Ashu,
I LAUGHED, a real uproarious laugh, seeing the whole absurdity of trying to be enlightened. The whole thing is ridiculous because we are born enlightened, and to try for something that is already the case is the most absurd thing. If you already have it, you cannot achieve it; only those things can be achieved which you don't have, which are not intrinsic parts of your being. But enlightenment is your very nature.
I had struggled for it for many lives -- it had been the only target for many many lives. And I had done everything that is possible to do to attain it, but I had always failed. It was bound to be so -- because it cannot be an attainment. It is your nature, so how can it be your attainment? It cannot be made an ambition. - Silence of the Sleep What Have I Done?